хех. какво им има понякога на някои родители? toTAL POWER НАИСТИНА РАЗДЕЛЯЙ И ВЛАДЕЙ... пълен контрол над живота. ако го нямат те преследват докато го получат. а ако не им го даваш ти си лошият. щото не ги обичаш. еби му майката. тая сутрин пак се изнервих и се карахме. че и вчера.

i'm feeling so confused today
it seems they changed the rules today

тая сутрин седя пред PC-то със слушалките и не ща повече друго да чувам. само издивявам. на genesis. хех - други могат да издивяват пък на join me in death. винаги ми е звучало като join me in bed. интересно някой мислел си е е че и на такава музика може да се полудява. волюмето на мах докато нищо не мога да чуя. абсолютно нищо друго. даже и да чуя песента. думите стават толкова изкривени, музиката е просто някакав страничен бял шум - като шума по радиото когато търсиш някоя радиостанция. нищо не различаваш. просто тишина. и се кефиш докато всички клетки на мозъка ти не изпукат, а тъпанчетата са просто неизпържени бъркани яйца - омлет, от ушна кал която се стича надолу по врата и дрехите и изтича в канавката. и изперквам с кеф.

Well the key to my survival
was never in much doubt
the question was how I could keep sane
trying to find a way out

Things were never easy for me
peace of mind was hard to find
and I needed a place where I could hide
somewhere I could call mine

I didn't think much about it
til it started happening all the time
soon I was living with the fear everyday
of what might happen that night

I couldn't stand to hear the
crying of my mother
and I remember when
I swore that, that would be the
Last they'd see of me
And I never went home again

they say that time is a healer
and now my wounds are not the same
I rang the bell with my heart in my mouth
I had to hear what he'd say

He sat me down to talk to me
he looked me straight in the eyes

he said:

You're no son, you're no son of mine
You're no son, you're no son of mine
You walked out, you left us behind
and you're no son, no son of mine

oh, his words how they hurt me, I'll never forget it
and as the time, it went by, I lived to regret it

You're no son, you're no son of mine
but where should I go,
and what should I do

you're no son, you're no son of mine
but I came here for help, oh I came here for you

Well the years they passed so slowly
I thought about him everyday
what would I do, if we passed on the street
would I keep running away

in and out of hiding places
soon I'd have to face the facts
we'd have to sit down and talk it over
and that would mean going back

they say that time is a healer
and now my wounds are not the same
I rang the bell with my heart in my mouth
I had to hear what he'd say

He sat me down to talk to me
he looked me straight in the eyes

he said:

You're no son, you're no son of mine
You're no son, you're no son of mine
When you walked out, you left us behind
and you're no son, you're no son of mine

oh, his words how they hurt me, I'll never forget it
and as the time, it went by, I lived to regret it

You're no son, you're no son of mine
But where should I go and what should I do
You're no son, you're no son of mine
But I came here for help, oh I was looking for you
You're no son, you're no son of mine - oh
You're no son - ha yeah, ha yeah, ha yeah, ha yeah
You're no son, you're no son of mine - oh, oh...





и какво? вчера пак не успях да се наспя. станах в 5.30 и не заспах повече. и утре няма да се наспя...


Like the story that we wish was never ending
We know sometime we must reach the final page
Still we carry on just pretending
That there'll always be another day to go

Far away, away, fading distant lights...

хех
Ceterum censeo Carthaginem esse delendam