Zdravej otnovo, anonymous.

People with big brains mature slowly, hence I am not educated yet. This is why I can not give you an advice on what you should do and what you must not. You will find the answer on your own. However, in between the rows I have implicitly embedded a suggestion in the following excerpt "...no zasluzhavash poveche ot tova koeto poluchavash, a dali shte go namerish tuk, az lichno mnogo se sumnjavam."

Finally something on the luck; Voltaire says: "Nothing happens without a reason, luck is an empty word." An the principle of causality well supports that.
Think of the human being as a non-linear biological system with some inherent limitations, operating in highly interactive biological and non-biological environment. The output/s of any real system (including human being) at a given instant of time, depend/s not only on the input/s at that time but also on the past input/s.

Here you will find friends, whose suggestions and heartfelt wishes may calm you, occasionally you will find solace in some of the revelations too but all those will result in a temporary solution. The permanent one, I very much doubt that exists here, where you embarked to look for it.

You exhibit an extraordinary level of intellect which will shine on your first exposure in a new environment. The virtual environment is a dead-end avenue.

Tangible environment will expose the flaws and valuable traits of the person in question quicker that here.

It seems that you have thrown an anchor.
Just get back into the stream, and you can stop by at a bay of your choice.

Sus zdrave i bez prejudices,

engineer


P.S: Izvini me, che ti replywam na English, no bulgarskija pochti ne sum go ispolzvuval ot poveche ot decade, i bi mi vzelo polovin chas da napisha tova- mozhe bi pak котстатации.

P.P.S: Ako imash vreme clickni v amazon.com i type'way: using your brain for a change, bandler. Tova e kniga na Richard Bandler i John Grider founders of NLP (Neuro Linguistic Programming). Shte namersih purvite 10 stanitzi v amazon.com

Ako ti bih mogul da ti izpratja knigata.
Drugi knigi na R. Bandler i J. Grider sa "Frogs into Princes" i "Trance-formations".


котстатации- tova "constellation" li e? rechnika mi e oskuden!