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Everything I do is just a waste of time
All I`m doing is wrong
I make mistake by mistake
I feel empty, so empty
Oh, why are all the feelings gone?
There was left only the fear,
The fear of the Death
But Death is far away, I know it
And against that I`m still afraid
Why am I frightened that the time is not enough
when time is endless…
ya, I`m saying, time is endless
but not for me…
my time could stop right now,
my way could not continue after the turn.
How could I choose the right direction?
Can I do anything like it must be done?
I feel useless and alone
Like all my friends and the family are gone…
I`m scared by the lonelyness
I want somebody to help me,
Somebody to fix-up that mess
And to get me out of it…
Oh, yeah, I want the things to be alright,
But why is it so difficult?
Each day I hurt my friends, I make them suffer
So they start to hate me
But I keep loving them
And they could not believe me!
And how could I judge them?!
Nobody can understand me…
Maybe `cause I can`t understand myself
I feel like I`ve lost myself
in this storm called Life
and now I can`t find the person, Real Me
Please, help me to find my soul
Help me to find my way
And to follow my destiny
`cause now I`ve lost everything
I feel like I don`t belong to this world…
It`s so sad and miserable
I don`t want to be that way!
What can I do? Please, tell me,
What`s the right decision `cause I don`t know it now
I just want to be a Person
I wanna learn to be good
To keep my promises, and to forgive
I don`t wanna make more stupid mistakes
Cause I know that I am not a fool…
All I need now is just a friend of mine
A person whom I can count on, whom I can trust
Is there left someone? I hope so,
`cause I can`t handle it by myself…
the problem is too deep and too strong
and if I stay alone it will finally defeat me…
is there anybody who does not want my death?…

Beyond life and death, above the heaven & below the hell, there was...ME