in janet's wordsin the essence article:

I was in Lyon, France, in 1998 on the Velvet Rope tour. In two separate accidents--one involved my dog and the other a magazine that grazed my eye--my corneas had been scratched. Somehow I made it through the show, but afterward my eyes were burning so badly that even the lights on the dashboard felt like daggers. The throbbing was excruciating. We went looking for a hospital--it was past midnight--where an impatient nurse applied a salve that only made it worse. Back at the hotel, my eyelids were swollen to the size of lipstick pencils. I cried all night. When morning came, I couldn't see. But where my eyes failed, my heart saw with a clarity I had never before known: I saw my marriage for what it was. It was that simple. My husband's concern was elsewhere. Other things dominated his attention, secret things I had failed or refused to recognize. I won't say what things because they are not mine to reveal. We'd been ensnared in a sad, sick dance. The dance involved hours of therapy but very little sincerity. The sickness was subtle. We had few arguments; there was no physical abuse. But double lives were being led; hidden agendas were being pursued. And I was seeing what I had never wanted to see. Or admit. I dislike admitting it here.

rene is such a.....
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B!TCH!!! I can't believe he did that to her! She loved him soo much and he treated her like sh!t when she needed him the most!!! If it was me i would not have been able to ever trust or love anyone ever again, i mean 13 years is not a short time! So for janet to be able to let new people into her life after what he did i give all of my RESPECT to her!! And to top it off she said that she still loves him but she's not in love with him!! LOVE YOU JANET 4LIFE
KEEP YO HEAD UP BABY GURL!!

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